(Music Video) Bobby Dime$ X Driver's Seat prod. by Sap

His new album Google That is out now.. Click the title for details..

Depression: Sometimes, it is THAT BAD..

This is personal btw.. Not what I heard.. What I saw..

Suite 302/Carolinaware's Own are one..

New location for my 'home' barbershop. Read the post for details

I've walked that walk with someone..

Personal true story... Hope it helps someone.

The Foreign Exchange X New Music X So What If It Is...

New REMIX ALBUM coming 2/13/13 from them..Read posts for details..

JAMLA RECORDS x RAPSODY X IN THE TOWN FT. NOMSA MAZWAI

If you don't know about Ms. Evans, GET FAMILIAR DAMMIT. She can SPIT.. Period.

CAROLINAWARE'S TWITTER 2 X.. @OneoftheMs

Aka Mrs. Carolinaware's Own R.I.P. Rest In Power pretty gal..

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Is the way we date flawed?

http://board.okayplayer.com/okp.php?az=show_topics&forum=4&page=4

I kinda touched on it here a bit but I really want to examine that. I mean, for as long as even I can remember I have been getting a mixed message about dating in general. By dating, I am talking yt speak so that means anything short of marriage, just to clear that up.

I was bought up to respect woman but that I certainly had no obligation to them or the relationship that I was in. The woman I dealt with followed suit too as that is what they were told. The problem to me in that though is that even though we felt that way, we carried on the facade that many people today (and I assuming in the past did). We 'acted' like we were all in on the outside but on the inside we were plotting and scheming on ways to make sure that we didn't 'become all in'. That was cool in the relationships that didn't last per say 'cause, well they didn't last. (But who knows what would have happen had everyone involved gave 100%) However, in that relationship that did last, all of the damage that 'pretending' to be all in can cause has had to be repaired. Or at least had to go to the 'relationship repair shop'. Some of it is STILL in that 'repair shop' and is going to take a long time to fix. Thus my issue with 'dating' or what it has become. See the above link (it is pretty Work Safe) to get what I am saying a little more in detail.

Read it? Good. Now we can continue. Like I said in that linked post, I just think that we don't 'practice' the idea of a good relationship enough. Nor are we getting the right message to do so. Are you (or I) supposed to just wake up one day and know how to compromise? Know how to TRULY deal with people's shortcomings instead of throwing them back in their face by either duplicating them (trying to teach them some sort of lesson) or just not talking to them about it but slowing stewing and becoming bitter? Or are we supposed to bounce from relationship, thinking 'it has to be them 'cause it isn't me'? These are the things that I feel are destroying relationships. It may sound silly but these (and many more things) are common place in a relationship and for some, is what a relationship is. That's sad. No wonder nobody wants to take the next step...

Just some questions I have...I don't want to go into too much 'cause I want some actual feedback. Maybe as it comes up, I will add on or make more posts about it.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

So you say you weren't trying to get your Brother In-Law fired eh Sarah?

Listen to the audio of one of Governor Palin's workers 'gently' asking about this very topic among other unethical things..

It is up on Alaska's STATE WEBSITE..LOL


http://www.gov.state.ak.us/audio/FrankBaileyCDaudio.mp3

I will stay away from the daughter's pregnancy 'cause that is not a uncommon thing. I do understand she is on her horse about the whole issue so I get why people are going in on it. I am with Barack (I sincerely thinks he feels that way.) That part of her is her business.

But this right here? Oh yeah, I am going to speak (or post up a link) to.

Friday, August 29, 2008

He impressed me last night...

That was a historic moment last night. Barack filling a football stadium, speaking not only to them but a packed Times Square, some other locations and the MILLIONS AND MILLIONS of people who watched on TV.

I hear a lot of people criticizing him (read: his detractors) for attacking the Repubs and playing ball like they do. I say it is about time. If he were lying, I would take an issue with it but what he said was true.

I also am not sure where (or how) the lil bit about this campaign being more about 'him' than the people came from. His whole point has been 'THE PEOPLE' could vote who they wanted and the people are tired of the old regime. Not just him by himself. He answered a call. We called for him. Maybe not all of his supporters in the beginning but those that saw him speak in 04' called out for him LOUDLY to be the one to be the one to lead that change. Every movement has a voice or a face but it is NEVER supposed to be about that face or voice. Every time he speaks he carries 'the people's' message with him in EVERY FORMAT. He speaks to those that he is trying to help.

I am also a little sick of hearing about how his ability to speak or motivate is a 'HINDERANCE' or some sh#t. People are beginning to sound like they do when a rapper/musician becomes popular over their favorite rapper/musician. They begin to try to use their appeal against them. It is not his fault he is a 'motivator' no more than it is that it isn't a Young Jeezy or Jay-Z's fault that they can motivate the people who believe in what they say. The man can speak. That is a GOOD THING. While things are in transition, which they will be in a state of flux for a minute while his programs get rolling, we will need that inspiration to keep our eyes on the big picture. Change. We need that. It is proven. We need the change but we also need our spirits kept up while change is happening.

Now are his politics/promises without flaw? Nope. Any idiot that believes that his followers are idiotic enough to believe that solely 'cause they support him are TEN TIMES THE IDIOT they believe his followers are. We aren't stupid. We know that even if he gets 8 years, he can't fix things that have been decades in the making (or ruining). That takes time. We just want to get off to a good start. That's all we want right now. I want to be well on it's way when my kids get older. @ change.

How did I know that the Repubs were going to the young lady in Alaska? @ the VP choice. There goes their 'experience' argument. Yeah...yeah..yeah..she is not running for President but she would be next in line. Then what? Oh yeah, McCain's experience can counter her inexperience. And Biden can do that for Barack. It's a draw and no longer an advantage. Sorry. None of them have been President so it is a new experience for all involved last time I checked. I see 'em trying to get a 'looker' in the office too. Don't think that wasn't factored in. If all else falls, sex appeal sells in this country and cats have been known to think with their dicks more often than their top heads. I can see that happening.


This broad thinks she is going to change McCain's mind. Peep this...

Thursday, August 28, 2008

What is Shawne Merriman THINKING?

I love a dude with the guts to play through injuries. I REALLY DO. But starting off the season with torn ligaments in your knee CANNOT BE GOOD. It just can't. I could see some punk ass lineman (not all linemen are punks but every position has it's punks. Sorry..) taking one for the team with the game on the line and cut blocking the bs outta Shawne's knee.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

We did it!! I know you know already

but we finally redeemed ourselves to the basketball world and won the Gold medal. I was glad the game was close personally so that we could 'earn it' a bit. Even though they were down the pg, they still boasted several NBA players that play at a pretty good level in the "L". Wade is back! You can drop the 'bronze' off of Lebron's name and Chris Paul, Chris Bosh and Kobe showed why they are the stars of their teams. The young phenom Howard was pretty impressive too. While the Fernandez dunk won't make me forget this one... ....It was still very impressive.


Good job Hillary and Bill. Way to move to the side and let Barack do Barack while still supporting him. Great speech by Hills and a pretty good one by Bill tonight. I am not unhappy with the choice of VP as he needs Biden's experience and he is not a bad politician in his own right. He can hold his own.

That Jeezy album is IMPRESSIVE. The Inspiration was a good album. The first joint, Thug Motivation was a classic of course. This one right here (The Recession)will be a classic too. Don Cannon laced Jeezy as did Shawty Red and Drumma Boy. He is still motivating but he is touching on real life subjects as well. I am sure that at this point you have heard the joint with Nas where he speaks on Obama (My President). Vacation is on point too. I believe there is a video out for that right now. (Click here to watch the video.
http://2dopeboyz.com/2008/08/27/young-jeezy-vacation-video/

It is out there but this is one that you won't find me linking up. I know you will probably find it on your own but I am hoping he does Wayne like numbers (and he should) as his album is better than Wayne's (and that is saying something 'cause Wayne's was a monster in it's own right.) It has that 'no skip' factor that I look for in a album where all the songs are hot and you just put it on and let it ride.

I have not reviewed Paper Trail (T.I) in hopes that some of what I am hearing isn't the actual album. You can take that how you wanna but I only like 3 outta the 5 joints I have heard.


I keep hearing rumblings about Solange's new joint on the site I frequent but I will reserve judgment until I actually hear it. I am sure she is talented and it is fine. We will see.

Friday, August 15, 2008

Fios!! Fios! Hurry up Verizon and STOP PUTTING

IT IN MY DAMM NEIGHBORHOOD. You are messing with my Internet connection dammit. On top of that, I am hearing that it is all hype. All of this trouble, it better be worth it dammit.

Because of this, I have been unable to log on consistently. Which is making this suffer a bit but there is NO SHORTAGE OF TOPICS FOR ME TO TALK ABOUT TODAY!

Let start with the death of two ICONS.

R.I.P to Isaac Hayes and Bernie Mac. I am at such a loss for words that all I know to do is post of some of their work and let it speak for itself.

I am an ordinary person with an extraordinary guy- Bernie Mac

If you are at work, TURN YOUR SPEAKERS DOWN. NSFW



The guy that made having a bald head cool for a black man and had more talent in his pinky than most cats had in their whole head



You KNOW I AM GOING TO SEE 'SOUL MEN now. @ the movie that they are both in.

Well, well, Brett's arm is a little tired. Nobody is surprised by this as MOST QB'S arms are tired at this point and their reps are limited. Wake up out there in Jet land. Your QB is pushing 40. You can't have him out there throwing a 100 times a day yet. Ease him in. The lap thing is funny though and it is good to see him being 'one of the guys'.

Don't look now, but our men's basketball team is starting to look like a team! We still have superstars but they now accept their roles. Imagine that? And we are a lil bit bigger too at the guard spot so that helps. I swore I wasn't going to write about them until we started avenging some losses. Since we beat Greece, here I go!! We still can't hit that International Three 'cause it is a arm shot, not a leg shot but we are imposing our will. The defense is MUCH BETTER. We are turning people over at a high rate. If we can keep that up, we will win the Gold. Mr. Wade is showing his ENTIRE A## right now. He is playing like he did when they beat Dallas in the Finals. He looks healthy. Chris Bosh balled out yesterday too and I have no idea what has gotten into Lebron. He is punching shots like he is center out there. They look great.


Here is a recap of us against Greece. I love how a couple of years ago they kept saying they had 'not one professional player' knowing damm well that at least 8 of them play for top teams in Europe. Funny.



Here is a recap of us against China (Team Yao!)


http://www.theasianeconomist.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/08/lebron.jpg



Speaking of the team and Lebron...(Not 'exactly' safe for work either but eh....) I mean she isn't the 'phattest' thing I or him have ever seen but I can't be mad at him. She at least looks like she eats..


Songs of the week: All by my favorite artists. Go figure.

Universal Mind Control- Common ft. Pharrell



I Put On (Remix) ft. Jay-Z



Jockin' Jay-Z- Jay-Z produced by Kanye West


Wish You Would- Ludacris ft. T.I. ('Bout damm time they stopped all that silliness @ the beef)


Oh yeah and Madden came out. I have to say that I impressed by the fluidity of the game but the exclusion of the 'Vision Cone' as a default setting is silly. True, there is no light shining out of a person's head on the football but I can also look at the QB's head for movement to see what direction he is looking in too. Something that does not happen on this game. Oh well, the League that I help run is still using the 'Cone' 'cause if not, the games would be on the Arena Football level for real. 105-77 or some mess.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

All of that....

and they end up trading Brett Favre? They could have save us (and him) the trouble and taken that route weeks ago. There was no need for him to even come to Green Bay, for them to 'distract their team (I hate that term..), or any of the other mess that came out of this. This offer has probably been on the table since it was rumored he was coming back and they could have told Brett flat out this is what it is..Silly.

Ooh, we got tested. @ the Olympic Basketball Team. Last I checked, that was what was supposed to happen with these games wasn't it? We increased the level of comp with each game. It was SUPPOSED TO GET HARDER. Hello. That being said, we should still be expected to win and if we don't it should be a disappointment. Looks like Chris and Deron have rightfully taken Jason's spot for now but we will probably need J-Kidd's poise at some point.

More coming...Sorry about the delay. Damm you Verizon. @ the Internet interruptions in the day.

Well well well.....The collabo that I have been waiting for since "Stomp". Luda and T.I. made a song together. It took me all night to find it but I did.....

Ludacris Wish You Would ft. T.I

http://www.zshare.net/audio/166877142c0c2b17/

It is my understanding that this isn't the only song they have together that is new so I will DEFINITELY BE LOOKING FOR IT. T.I. is a favorite of my and Ludacris is definitely in my rotation so to see them bury that hatchet (even if it is for a second 'cause you know how our people do), get on the same record and do the thang is monumental in my opinion...I am a happy cat right now. For real. Now here's hoping that the BluePrint III rumors are true, Luda's, T.I's, and Jeezy albums all hit and that this trend continues...

Monday, July 28, 2008

What to talk about today? Hmmmmmm..

We could start with that very good Team USA showing on Friday night. Lebron didn't play but I am not overly concerned about his status. The person whose status I was worried about was D-Wade's and he showed that he is on the way to being 'back'. Slashing drives. Jumpers. Steals and thunderous dunks. In addition, I didn't see any grimacing when he landed after he jumped. He looked happy and pain free. That's the REAL ISSUE. The backcourt of Williams and Paul looked like they had grown up playing with each other and they compliment each other well. I am a lil worried about the frontcourt size wise but I also know that in FIBA ball, you don't need a 'Shaq like" player to win. All those guys are usually 6-8ish to 6-11ish who can all shoot and handle. They don't usually post up too often and they move a lot so I think that we should be aight.

Here is a clip and interviews..


I know that some of you have seen this here:http://www.wowowow.com/post/wedding-lawsuit-fiance-Georgia-divorce-70358?promo=news

While I understand that she uprooted her life he paid some of her debt and she also neglected to reveal (or he didn't know) that she had even more debt. Unbelievable that they would award her that amount of money. I could see her getting her part of the money back if she chipped in but she didn't even do that. What next, people are going to be able to sue their high school sweethearts for promises made of having a 'happily ever after' during the graduation ceremony? This is ridiculous. I would love to know who some of these people on the jury are what types of mistakes they have made. Hopefully, someone sues them over something like this and then they can see how it feels.

Friday, July 25, 2008

A little bit of what I like musically...

This is the song that currently has my lil girls dancing and whatnot..I hope this dude finally blows up by the way. Kardinal Offishall
http://www.zshare.net/audio/92615753bae7ed

And the chick in the video? Oh boy...

Here is my West Coast track of the week: Quarterbackin' E-40 ft. the Clipse
http://www.zshare.net/audio/118604741bd8ee58/

And the East Coast joint: Big Pun ft. Black Thought Superlyrical
http://www.zshare.net/audio/108525129f594429/

Of course, I have a Southern one too: Somebody (Love's You)


I sometimes the tracks will be new. Sometimes they will be old. It just depends on how I am feeling. Hell, there might even be more than one. Again, it depends on my mood.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Dealing with the past....

I see the "new" Governor of NY decided to put his salacious scandal out IN FRONT OF HIM. I like the attitude personally. No one's shit is perfect. I told you before (those of you who know me personally) that all that fairy tale bullshit is for the books. Things happen. Good people screw up VERY BADLY sometimes. It is what makes us humans. We all know better but our emotions get in the way sometimes, people get neglectful and boom. There it is. I am not so sure why we are all so shocked by all of these revelations. I am not. It doesn't taint their union anymore than it would taint someones union where one spouse was hoarding money, being abusive, or any of the array of things that could (and probably will go) wrong during the course of a life together with someone. Good for them for not allowing someone to "break" the story.

Let's speak on the "past" a bit. I think that some of you are a lil confused as to what dealing with the past entails. Some of you have a "story book" ideal on how it gets dealt with. Let me break it down for you......

Anytime that you have done something to someone that has hurt them to the core, you can count on a couple of things:

They are not going to be happy.
The level of "respect and trust" will change. (More on this later)
What you used to get away with will no longer fly if you plan on still being with them.
They will try to hurt you in some capacity.

All of these things are HUMAN TRAITS PEOPLE. Now, there are some people out there who are the EXCEPTION but by and large, the rest of us are going to act on all the things I just touched on.

They are not going to be happy. This sounds so simplistic that I shouldn't have to go into it. But some of you just don't get it. You DID THEM WRONG. They are not supposed to like what you did. And no, you don't get to dictate how long they get to be angry about it either. Just because you thought that it wouldn't hurt them that bad because of the way that they were acting towards you (which is why you may have done what you did) DOES NOT MATTER. Get that out of your head. You were wrong. Accept it. Man up and deal with the bed you have made. You are going to get cussed out. You are going to have to deal with some form of the truth either with what you did, how you hurt the person or what they may have been doing while you were hurting them.

The level of trust and respect will change. Again simplistic. But some of you can't figure out for the life of you why you can't go to the Waffle House at 3 am anymore by yourself. Well let me clue you in. THAT'S WHERE YOU WERE MEETING THE PERSON YOU WERE SCREWING. Hello!! Someone is supposed to trust you again on that shit? Really? Some of you can't figure out why your spouse/SO is asking to see your pay stub every two weeks. Well seeing as though you keep STOPPING AT MACY'S OR BEST BUY every Friday and blowing bill money, they have to do so. Some of you can't figure out why the other person doesn't consult you about important things anymore and just does them on their own. When you flip them off every time a discussion that doesn't involve Dancing With the Stars, Brittney Spears, or the Houston Rockets, how many more times are they supposed to come at you? Once someone finds out your MO on the way you were doing wrong, you DESERVE to have to earn that once blind trust back. You don't just get it back with some crocodile tears, a couple of romantic dinners and a few weeks of good behavior. Some of you know this though 'cause if you caught someone on the foul, you MIGHT NOT EVEN GIVE THEM A SECOND CHANCE. Which is sad. I wonder how many of your SO's really know that about you?

I don't have to address the third one too tough 'cause I pretty much laid it out. The rules change, as they should, once you are found out. Sorry. That's the way the cookie crumbles. Shoulda thought about that before.

Now the last one is tricky. Everyone has limits. Sometimes though, certain people are not pushed to their limits too often so there is a belief that they would "never" do certain things. Take that outta your mind. That is NOT TRUE. Take it from someone who is perceived to be one of the nicest people that any of their friends knew. Once they found out how I got down when I was upset, all that changed. But it took them years to see that. Most times, you will NEVER see it in this person. Do yourself a favor. Never lose sight of the fact that it does exist in them. For you own good and safety. I don't care how non threatening they seem. I don't care how much "self esteem" they have. How high classed. In the name of revenge, people will go far below their standards. I have had the unfortunate pleasure of seeing that in someone else too. Bottom line, once a person is fed up or hurt or whatever, NOTHING IS OUT OF THE QUESTION. Hiding money, fucking your friends, disrespecting you, disrespecting themselves to spite you, leaving you high and dry, all the way down to hurting those that you both mutually may love (whether on purpose or not). Once a person has been hurt like that or suspects that there is something that can hurt them like that taking place, all bets are off. Not only do you have to be prepared for that but you have to UNDERSTAND where all of that is coming from and put it into perspective. Be prepared to hear the justification for the act via the hurt that you caused. You may see people acting "outta character" in the name of hurting someone who has hurt them.

Friday, March 14, 2008

I suck at doing this everyday..My apologies ya'll

The last couple of days have been a lil hectic so I haven't been able to get on here like that. They are putting Fios (sp) in our neighborhood though so hopefully, that will help things. I have trouble even getting on the Net. lol

Anyhow, the lil bit of time that I was able to log on, I have been seeing a lot of posts, articles and such on cheating. I have been quite intrigued by the comments that I have seen in regards to the events. I have also been quite amused by Geraldine's comments on Barrack. So I guess I have a ton of stuff to get into huh? The cheating thing will probably be a recurring theme as it is always a topic on the message boards that I frequent. I will be speaking on it and relationships OFTEN on here.* Usually, I will swipe a particular topic from a place and elaborate on it. Occasionally I will speak on sports and sometimes on some random things.



**I think I am going to start by talking about people being human and just how "accepting" people are of this. Much like that gal from the Real World (Kameelah) people have a compiled this list of stuff that is just "unacceptable" for them to have to put up with from another person. Mind you, about 50% of the list is compiled of things that they do themselves! With reckless pride too might I add. So I am not sure that many people are even starting out with the right attitude. Sure we all would like to find that perfect person. But any idiot who has been outside of their house knows that people aren't perfect. I think the list thing (and those that are still holding fast to their list) is the silliest thing. It is no wonder these people can't find anyone to stick around. The sooner people realize.....You know what? Fuck all that. I am going to stop being "diplomatic" about this one. Look, your ass is fucked up seven ways to Sunday so how in THE WORLD DO YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY to fall through expecting perfection? Yes you! I am talking to you and your funky ass. You with the gut hanging over demanding that every girl you mess with should look like your favorite video model/actress/girl in the media. You with the elephant arms demanding that your man needs to look like Tyson Beckford or whom ever it is you admire. You who will hollar at anything that moves while in a relationship but doesn't want anyone who has done a third of the grimy things that you have done. You that doesn't want a dude with kids yet you are three abortions short of having a third of a basketball team yourself. I am talking to you. You who got the "clap" or crabs yourself several times giving the rounds of applause when someone talks about any of the millions of people out here who have had the unfortunate experience of having an STD. You who secretly keeps male friends to get that attention you think you deserve thinking that the dudes don't know that is why you keep them around and then you wonder why people are suspect when you come around. Yes you! The person who flirts shamelessly with married people yet can't figure out why married people are always "coming at you" 'cause flirting isn't a bad thing. Yes you Miss Independent. The one that doesn't "need" a man but wants one to follow her around so she can dismiss him whenever she doesn't "need" him and expects him to still bend over backwards at a moments notice. Ole mind reading wanting ass. Yes you Mr. She Needs To Keep Her Ass In the Kitchen. The dude that can't stand that Miss Independent has her own money, her own mind and that you might actually have to listen to her like (gasp) your father had to listen to your mother anyway. (Which is what really happened. Let's be real. A great woman knows how to make a man feel like a man and still have a WHOLE LOT OF INPUT IN THE DECISIONS THAT ARE MADE. Ask somebody if you don't know..) Man, I could go on for days (I will don't worry. One day I will cover some shit YOU DID.) So miss me with the list people. You are human. You do shit. Daily. You can want what you want but you are living in fantasy land if you think that you keep up the shit you are doing and you are alone. You are not.

Well shit, I guess that means no one can be with each other huh? No, Mr./Mrs. Cynic. That's not what I am saying. What I am saying is that if you want to be with another "human" expect "human" things. You do know that humans error right? You need to leave room for that. Especially if you aren't TRULY bringing all you need to be bringing to the table too. Some of you are so stuck on yourself that you REALLY THINK THAT YOUR SHIT DOESN'T STINK. It is pathetic. I watch people put things up everyday about their foul ass attitudes, foul ass ways, and such and REALLY WONDER WHY THEY CAN'T KEEP SOMEONE AROUND. Did you not get the memo?





I am sorry, am I supposed to feel bad for Geraldine? I am fresh out of sympathy for her seeing as though she has a history of making these sort of comments in the past.




The Governor of New York has dragged some people into his mess that I feel a little sympathy for though. His kids, his wife and the call girl. What was he thinking? (c) Willie from College Hill Virgin Islands. Using the governments tab to do his dirty work? C'mon fam. Do better. Why he drug her up there to be embarrassed with him on the podium is beyond me. The call girl? My sympathy stems not from the fact that she was poor or whatever but more from the standpoint that she is doing what MILLIONS OF GIRLS are doing and she is getting ready to be "spokesperson" for it. The media is bullshit for publishing her myspace page and whatnot. Showing up outside her door to try to speak to her. For what? Her speaking out is going to do what? Make us understand? Yeah okay......

Anyway, that is it for today's "Tear you a new asshole" rant. lol.

I see the Suns are finally getting it together. @ win over Golden State. That is important 'cause they play small ball even better than Phoenix did before the trade for Shaq.

I can't believe that the kid that plays down the street at the Bob is actually being talked about as an NFL QB. I mean, Flacco is no scrub but I just don't see it. Then again, I have been wrong before. So have those damm scouts though..lol***


I am going to pick one thing (a hard thing for me to do 'cause I love to talk about any and everything.) and try to stick to it.

And as soon as I learn how to make this open to "comments" I will. Bare with me...



*Updated 7/13/12 You can find those topics under Grown Folks Talk...

**I consider this post to be the first 'true Grown Folks Talk' post although I didn't originally tag it as that.

*** He starts. I was wrong. Still not what they 'said' he was gonna be though. You see how he plays against us right? @ the Steelers

Friday, March 7, 2008

(Words) First post X Get A Blog!!!

Well, I got one! Well hell, what to do now?

Yesterday, I had to face the news that my Brother's Mother passed. We were actually very cool. I am saddened for my brother but I am glad that she did not have to suffer. The real issue that I am worried about is our father. It is my understanding that the strain that existed between the two of them was resolved before her passing. That gave me hope that one day, I may be able to do the same for some of the people that I dislike. Now I have to see about getting down that way to see about him.

Today, I did something that I have been working on for a long time. Actually two things. I started this blog. That was important because I didn't know where I was going to host the blog or even how to go about it. I just kinda stumbled upon it. I feel a certain amount of pressure now though so it may take a minute before I make this blog known. I want to get used to actually just blogging and that is it. Not trying to force the entries. Or write what I think people want to hear. Just write it and leave it alone. which is hard for me to do because I am a perfectionist to a point. I don't like being unclear and I have a mind that runs a mile a minute. Speaking of which, the second thing I did was finally express how I was feeling about an incident(s) on a website. It won't rehash it but I felt I needed to go ahead and let how I was feeling.

I wonder just how open I will be here.




Updated (2/19/2010)


Well...looking back on this post and seeing where the blog is now is quite interesting. It has taken shape. People do come and visit. I have gotten a little personal but not too personal. Spoke on things that bothered me. Spoken on some things even before they made the 'news'. Even got 'swiped' on more than 5 occasions. (That means, someone from a major news publication/blog came in an 'took my content' and used it in their pieces. No, I won't say who. You figure it out.) So yes, things are coming along quite nicely. Why am I updating a back post? 'Cause I want to use it as a bio of sorts. Rather than clutter up the main page with this LENGTHY diatribe I am about to unleash, I will just link people to this post. Why? 'Cause I can! It is my blog. Enjoy it.





Updated 7/13/12



Go to the About Me page.... Definitely informative....